| Like a cloud in the sky. |
[Nov. 11th, 2009|02:39 am] |
God, I want Your dreams to fall into place.
I think I'm in that time of my life where I start thinking about what I want in life. That time where it's still not too late to do something fun and exciting before I get bogged down by work. That time where I still have the chance to do all I can to get that edge.. but I'm not sure what I want. I kinda know. House, car, etc. I'm easily satisfied, so anything floats my boat. I'm a 'grab first, think later' kind of a person. I've always prayed, "God, I want a job. Just any job. Any job that treats me well, and pays the bills and other material items. Just any job!"
But down to the specifics, I'm not sure what I want. So my heart's cry is that, God, I want Your dreams to fall into place. Because every desire of my heart has been placed there by God. Naturally, I'd want to go back to the One who puts these desires and dreams! And tonight, I was praying for God to reveal to me this and that, and God, I want more and blah and blah and blah.. I want I want I want..
Then I stopped myself. And I asked, "Lord, what are you thinking?" If only we learnt to shift our focus to Him! Instead of throwing my wants and needs to Him like a list for Santa, I'd like to know what is on His mind, what He's thinking right this moment.
Because we have access to the King of Kings, the Creator of the Universe, the Saviour of the World, our Dream Maker.. suddenly, my needs and my desires pale in comparison to how majestic He is.
Whatever Your masterplan is for my life, I want it.
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| give me clothes. now. |
[Nov. 2nd, 2009|03:08 am] |
There's just something about girls and clothes.. and shoes.. and accessories.. and make up.. and.. bags.. and more..
I've been thinking about fashion PR lately. It's this far off dream that I keep playing in my mind. I don't get to wear or touch Chanel or wear Christian Louboutin. Honestly, I think the first thing I'd buy with my first paycheck (after treating my family to dinner) would be a (can't believe I'm squirming in my seat just thinking about it!) pair of Christian Louboutin heels. Ok. Maybe a Balenciaga bag. But then again, just for the kicks, I'd want to get a Chanel 2.55 bag. HAH. A girl can dream!
I don't know how well I'd do in fashion PR though :S
But for starters, I need to update my wardrobe. Throw out all my twelve year old clothes.
I love that Des is fashion friendly and... actually has an eye for fashion, and not like the 'typical' guy. I like it when he tells me what shoes matches which dress, and which jacket goes with which dress.
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| i should be doing my assignment.. |
[Oct. 29th, 2009|05:25 pm] |
..but I'm thinking about chai latte.
I just had two chai lattes yesterday, but I'm craving more!!
My favourites chai latte places:
1. Cinque Lire
2. Spiga (they have 2 choices- one's the traditional chai latte, and the other is a monk pear one. Amazing!)
3. Aubergine (East Malvern, yums!)
4. Journal (Real value for money!) |
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| the show, and the audience. |
[Oct. 29th, 2009|04:26 am] |
I was reading an article online about social media and public relations.
And for some reason, a revelation just hit me, "...public relations is about putting people first. define your audience/publics before your key messages. the people will carry your message."
I don't know why I never thought about that before. I was always taught the systematic way of doing things, you know.. the SWOT, the ROPE, the SMART objectives, etc. Whenever I work on a project to develop a campaign, my first thoughts are "okay, so who is my target audience?" So I think age group. Then I try to squeeze out some key messages that I hope will work. And I spend so much time working on the campaign part of the project, which is the communication channels, key messages & tactics... I forget about the audience. A lot of the time, the effort and the time is spent on the "show" and not the "audience".
But after reading that article, I guess it brings me back to why I'm wanted to do this course, and what makes me excited about this course. It's about the people and being passionate about them, whether it is in a not-for-profit, or impacting a generation, or selling a product. If you understand who you are catering to, you'll reach them. And once you do (in an open and honest way), your key message will speak for itself, and travel by itself via the people.
Why? Because it all comes back to the audience.
And in any case, I think spin in PR is really outdated. That's my honest opinion anyway. In the past, it's no doubt that PR practitioners used spin like there's no tomorrow. But now, both media and consumers want (and I guess, in some sense, demand) honesty. And especially with citizen journalism on the rise, the safe route is the honest route. Non-airbrushed skin on magazine covers are applauded for their honesty and openness. It's the 'age of repentance', I suppose. The public appreciates the "I'm sorry, we're not perfect, we stuffed up. Please forgive us" approach, rather than the spin/white lie approach.
I'm happy about this shift in the industry. It's in line with my work ethic, and well, I won't be so naive to say that it's going to be 100% honesty from now on, but I can definitely say that lying is going to be a lot harder.. and riskier.
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| prrrrrr. |
[Oct. 20th, 2009|04:34 am] |
Ideally, I'd like to be Samantha Jones. In the career sense.
Professional, successful, rich, and own lots of clothes & shoes. In the PR industry.
Not in the relationship sense though. I like having one boyfriend. |
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| time..is..running..out.. |
[Oct. 15th, 2009|02:39 am] |
God is good. In all seasons, He is good.
And in all seasons, direct my path, Lord.
I think as I grow up, it's so much more important to stick closer to God, to always keep my focus on Him. There's so many choices that bombard us everyday, and if we just let slip a little, we lose the whole plot. We spiral out of control. My family's all about balance and moderation. I've always heard my mum tell me, "Just eat in moderation". And that's what many people think, do things in moderation, keep it in balance. Don't 'overdo' it in Church. Don't volunteer too much in Church. Don't be so involved- you need balance.
But my balance is in God. My moderation is in Him. He is my balance. If He is my center, my all, I have balance. Without Him, I'd spiral out of control, I'm nothing. I've heard people say over the years that God is for those who are weak, those who are insecure.. I won't say that it makes me completely happy to say that I'm weak and insecure, but I'll admit that yes, I can't do life by myself, on my own. I need His help. Because He created life for a reason, He created me for a reason. And for that reason, I know my reason is in Him. Call me holy beyond words, but that's my personal opinion and you might have yours.
I've been reading scholarly opinions and debates about biblical issues. They're definitely convincing, and for a moment, I found myself swaying slightly. But at the end of it all, does it really matter? Yes and no. All I know is that it confirmed in my heart that no matter what doctrinal debates may throw out, my faith holds fast. And no matter how many words you analyse in the bible, and no matter how many scholars have their opinions on them, God is still God.
And He is always good.
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| girlfriend. |
[Oct. 8th, 2009|12:39 am] |
I think Avril Lavigne's Girlfriend song is catchy.
Hey, hey, you, you, I don't like your girlfriend...
Yeah, shame on me. Boooo. Bad taste in music. But it is catchy.
And I don't like it when it comes on the radio or in the supermarket speakers...
and I can't burst out into song & dance to Des. Because think about it, it doesn't make sense.
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| ezekiel thirty-seven. |
[Oct. 2nd, 2009|01:27 am] |
"We are products of what we speak, and our choices."
-Glen Berteau
Been listening to Glen Berteau's podcasts.
It's been so good. They've been speaking to me heaps.
Ezekiel 37 has never been so real to me than now. I need to learn to prophesy to dry bones. Not that my dream is dead, but I need to learn how to speak into something that I can't see. I need to speak into my future; I need to speak words of positivity into my future. Not words of mediocrity, but words of positivity. Right now, my dream is as small as a sesame seed. But I'm being challenged to dream bigger, dream higher.
Having said that, it's not being proud. But working towards a dream.
I don't want to live a life of a "what life could have been" or a "what life might have been". I want to live His dream life for me.
I need to be speaking life into my dreams, into my future. My words need to have life. My words need to... bring life.
Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. I need a heart change.
At the end of the day, I... just need to surrender my career, my future, my everything to Him. But I'm so convicted right now, to have a change of heart, a change of how I speak. I need to speak words of positivity, of compassion, of love. If it's anything of late, especially with the earthquakes & tsunamis, we need more light in this world. It's not making the world a better place by us speaking darkness and negativity into it.
Change my heart, God.
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| Dreams. |
[Sep. 27th, 2009|08:11 pm] |
The more I fall in love with God & people, the less I am in love with myself.
And that's a good thing. I've been spending lots of time with friends recently, and I'm loving it. Friends who love me, encourage me & edify me.
When I met up with the girls the last time, I spoke about how we are extraordinary and we shouldn't limit ourselves to what is 'normal', that we should lift off the limitations of our lives. That we can do and achieve whatever we want, because we're called to be Dreamers. That we must realise our potential, and embrace it. That we shouldn't be sorry for being great. That we shouldn't apologise for being different, for being Dreamers, for being great.
I need to hear that for myself. I need to stop listening to negativity. A lot of the time I listen to people tell me what is 'normal', what I should expect. I need to listen to the words of Dreamers. Some people say it's naive to dream, it's childish to aim for the sky, that I need to be practical & real. But it won't be a 'dream' if it was practical & if it was real. I don't want to live a mediocre life. I've been praying for God to expand my mind, give me bigger dreams, propel me into my destiny & lay the path before me. I'm challenging myself to dream bigger, aim higher. I don't just want 'what I can get'.. I want to be where God wants me to be, I want His blessings to overflow! Surely life isn't just about securing a job, getting married & buying a house? I'm sure that God has more to offer than just that. And I want what He's got for me. And it comes with obedience.
This is the start to the rest of my life. And many people have been telling me that life is hard work, that I must be prepared for what's to come, etc. I'm excited to live life! Life is not supposed to be mediocre. I'm sure God didn't place us on earth to live just to die. I'm so glad just to be alive!!
God, I want to do Life together with You. Expand my mind. I want to dream bigger! Propel me into my destiny.
Amaze me, Lord.
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| Christmas Wish List... pt 1 |
[Sep. 25th, 2009|04:00 am] |
I'm currently loving Forever New and H&M.
Due to the lack of $$$, I can only lust.
I'm quite happy that 'sexy' is being redefined now. It's no longer mini skirts and low cut tops. It's being confident and comfortable in who you are. It's loose & slouchy. It's slightly oversized blazers. It's harem pants. I looooove it.
It's who you want to be. |
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| I choose. |
[Sep. 20th, 2009|11:05 pm] |
Life is about choices.
We have choices on who and what we partner with. Today Pastor Sam spoke about powerful partnerships.
And I'm weary, I'm worn out, I'm tired, I'm ready to just hand in my first late assignment. But something from deep within, maybe it's pride, but it whispers for me to partner with God, the Giver of strength, and to partner with persistence, and to partner with a spirit of endurance.
It's about perception. Each assessment I churn out is a journey to my dream. It's a stepping stone to my dream. I must constantly remember that it wasn't by my own strength that I managed to get into this course, therefore, all that I do has to be with His strength, it has to be with the best I can possibly push out of myself. Because in my dream, I get the best. And to get the best, I have to give my best, and God will give His best.
When you partner with someone, there's a connection, there's a dependence.
God, I choose to partner with You. |
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| Comfortable... or not. |
[Sep. 20th, 2009|10:42 pm] |
I need a new study chair.
The one I'm currently sitting in is slowly wearing out. It's definitely giving me knots all over my back and shoulders. I'm sure it's ruining my posture too. I don't slouch- and now I do. I would like to take RMIT's swivel chairs home. They are amazing!
But other than that, I feel busy. I'm not sure if I am busy, but I feel busy. After a while, everything seems to be a bit of a blur. I've always heard the phrase 'keep up with the times', but I never really quite understood it till now. I feel like I'm chasing time. And I'm not quite the athlete here :(
I'm whining.
No time to whine. I have to do projects. Yuck.
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| pfft. |
[Sep. 15th, 2009|02:57 am] |
Thank God for education.
But essays... are :( |
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| christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
[Sep. 8th, 2009|06:43 pm] |
If I am in Melbourne for Christmas this year, I will have...
- A Christmas tree
- Presents under my Christmas tree
- A Christmas Party!
Yes, it is THAT time of the year again. I am once again, excited about Christmas!!!!
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| thankful. |
[Sep. 8th, 2009|01:18 am] |
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I thank God for friendships and relationships.
I thank God for Desmond. I thank God that we're placed together, constantly encouraging each other in times of difficulty, lifting each other in prayer in times of hardship. I thank God for someone who will listen to my cries and will laugh at my silly jokes. I thank God that we are able to work through the rough times, and enjoy the good times together. I thank God that we are able to stand side by side each other. I thank God for someone who complements me in my weak areas, and support me in areas where I am strong. I thank God that we are able to serve and lead in the ministry together.
I am constantly learning from Des. Learning what it means to be resilient, what it means to be patient, what it means to trust. I don't say it enough to him, but I appreciate everything that he has taught me.
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| more to life. |
[Sep. 6th, 2009|07:05 pm] |
Camp was sensational.
I went with a prepared heart. My heart had been pounding for weeks, even before camp had started. God was stirring me from within, and He never fails. He never fails to deliver promises! I came with expectations, and I left speechless. Dreams, visions, hope, faith.
I love fresh encounters with God. Just when you think you know God, He continues to do something from within & He amazes me. Everything at camp was done with such excellence- from the media team to the clean up duties. So privileged to be a part of planetUNI!
Gotta love new revelations, new friendships! I love it all. And oh, the tangible presence of God! I've learnt so much. And I guess, God's job is done. I asked and prayed for new encounters, new revelations, new friendships. And I got them. Now it's my job not forget about them, and keep them, invest in them & see a harvest.
Love has been restored. Love in all sense. I feel like my heart has just been stretched & expanded. The capacity is so much bigger & greater.
It's time to start stirring the dreams, and start expanding the mind, lifting off every limitations!
This is only the beginning of something great...
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| comfortable relationships. |
[Sep. 1st, 2009|02:47 am] |
I had a really elaborate dinner menu planned out for Saturday's night in with Des.
But like every other couple who is in a stable & comfortable relationship, something always crops up at the very last minute when you are trying to have a romantic date. He was late because of a very legit reason- band rehearsal for camp. Can't get angry when he's doing something I like & will benefit from.
So I got changed out of my pretty clothes and into my crappy tshirt & shorts... then he arrives. Now I'm too hungry and lazy to actually change back. And because he's late, I'm hungry, he's hungry- elaborate dinner menu is thrown out of the window, and we throw several edible items together, put them over fire, see them change colour slightly, dish them up & inhale them through our mouths. The mushrooms he made were yum. That's all I really remember...
On the up side, I made tiramisu the night before. At least we had a decent dessert. I haven't been baking lately. But it felt good to assemble food and bake again. I think I've got my baking mojo back! (Sort of. Until I get lazy. Which is now.)
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| Not enough hours in a day. |
[Aug. 27th, 2009|02:37 am] |
I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed at the moment.
Been sleeping late, waking up early. And feel like there's just not enough hours in a day to do what I need to do. Fingernails need to be cut, skin needs to be exfoliated, but I'm just so tired. My face is having a pimple party at the moment, urgh.
Uni has been crazy busy, with projects popping up everywhere, an essay coming up soon, a midsem test too. Then I've got ministry, friends, family, relationship. And I can't help but feel like my friends, family & boyfriend are being slightly neglected. Today was the first time in a couple of weeks since I've seen Carmen.
Weekends just fly by. Days just end too quickly. I just thank God that He is keeping me sane, and giving me strength.
But I know I need rest. And I will. I'll get my chill out time, my rest time, soon. In a bit. When I'm less busy. |
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| joy! |
[Aug. 14th, 2009|06:07 am] |
It's 6.07am, and I've just finished frying my beehoon for lunch... and I had some of it for brekkie.
After which, I will be going to sleep. I'm feeling a little overwhelmed by the enormity of my projects and assignments that seem to be piling up everyday.
Having said that, I think I've been doing quite well- uni work is on schedule, been punctual & haven't missed lecture/tutorials, running urbs, doing planetUNI's publicity, camp stuff, the rare Tuesday waitressing shift, discipleships & prayer meets, Sunday church, have a stable relationship, have incredible friendships, household chores, etc. Usually, I'd be bogged down, whining and tired. But lately, I've been feeling quite 'up and go'. Even though it has been minimal sleeping hours that I'm not usually used to, like waking up before 10am, etc. I've been able to stay awake in classes, pay attention, and still have 'residual' energy. I think I'm experiencing "the joy of of the Lord is my strength" kind of a strength.
Joy is the deeply-rooted confidence that God is in control. When our life is under the control of God, priorities fall into place; life is simplified and is soon characterized by joy.
And in the midst of chaos, I have peace and joy.
Proverbs 10:28 "The prospect of the righteous is joy."
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[Aug. 8th, 2009|01:20 am] |
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Many healings start with a "I'm sorry". |
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